That would be to realize the flaws in yourself, that possibly brought out the flaws in another.
I've done this before, to lovers and friends and enemies alike; forced them to see themselves in a way that was ugly to them, to see the flaws in themselves that they might not have been ready to tackle yet. Not out of malice, out of ignorance.
I know that I've got my own flaws, and what they are: impatience, frustration, selfishness, and low self-esteem at times. I've got issues with expressing my anger in an acceptable way. When one of these slips, the rest are in a rush right behind it, to pile onto me until I feel smothered in failure.
And this, I just discovered. I'm blind. When I feel overjoyed at having gotten something right, I want to share it with everyone and tell them how I did it, and push on them to do the same thing. I know I didn't do it out of malice, or of seeing them as flawed. I saw it as trying to help: "I learned a way to do things that worked for me, maybe you could try it!"
What I seem to forget is that everyone is on their own path. There are people in differing stages of their lives, that I'm just not seeing. I've had to step back and look at other peoples' lives as just that: their lives. Not mine. I have to remember that I'm not living their life, and I'm a different person than they are, with different thought patterns, life experiences and habits, so what works for me may not work for them. To think that I can fix everyone is unreasonable, and arrogant.
From now on, I will strive to remember that I am my own person, just as you are your own person.
From now on, I will strive to be more patient with everyone, myself included. Things take time; goals don't fall onto your head, neatly wrapped up in a Quest Log.
From now on, I will love myself, and treat others as I wish to be treated.
From now on, we're all individuals. You are not peripheral characters in my story. You all have your own.
I love each and every one of you. Whoever may be reading this. :)
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